Pregnancy

Pregnancy is such an interesting and beautiful thing. I always wondered what it would be like to be pregnant. So many thoughts ran through my mind. Would we know when we should start trying? How would my body handle being pregnant? Should we wait until I finish school? Would we be good parents? How would we teach our kids all the things we were taught? I've heard all the stories of how hard it is, and to make sure your ready because life will never be the same, but these warning statements are always followed by people saying that they wouldn't trade it for the world. Just as all things in life this is another stage we go through to help us grow and become close to our Heavenly Father and each other as a couple. I know that it will be hard, and sometimes I may think how can I do this but at the same time I can't think of anything more rewarding than helping bring a little angel into this world who will teach us more than we could ever learn on our own. Sometimes it can be so overwhelming knowing all the amazing women out there who have made such an impact on my life especially my own mother. I think everyone believes this but I believe I have one of the best in the world. Those who know my mother can attest. I hope one day I can be just like her. She has instilled in me my passion for wanting to be a mother and has shown me how much joy it has brought to her life. Here is how our adventure began... My Grandpa Griffeth passed away this last December. He would always tease Kolby and I about how we didn’t have any kids yet and how he wanted to meet them before he passed away. I would always say I only have a little longer with school so we want to start trying after the summer of 2012. Then I would be done with school and it would be the perfect timing (in our minds). Well Heavenly Father had a different plan for us. I went in to my yearly appointment and had a feeling that I needed to ask my Doctor if I could be pregnant. I had been on birth control for over three years now and ran out just a few days before my yearly appointment but surely nothing could have happened that fast. It was still in my system I thought ☺…. Well the Doctor said you never know maybe just wait a little while before you start taking your birth control and see. So we waited and waited… it seemed like forever. I went to the store and bought an early pregnancy test. We ran home and tried it out. A few minutes later we got the results, it was POSITIVE!.. But the line was faint. What did that even mean? Were we pregnant? Were we not? So of course we googled it because Google has all the answers and Google said there is no such thing as a false positive. We were in shock. I started crying out of excitement and nervousness and Kolby just sat there in shock. The next morning Kolby had to go to Rexburg for school so we waited again until it was nighttime when he got home to take the 2nd test. We got the same result. It really bothered me that it was a faint line because I still kept thinking maybe I’m not pregnant if it’s only a faint line. I didn't want to get my hopes up. So I called over my neighbor Kelli who is one of my best friends and asked her. I didn’t know who else to ask because we didn’t want to give it away if we were pregnant just yet and she had no family ties to us so it seemed like a safe bet. She asked around and told us the same thing that Google did, that there isn’t a lot of false positives. So just out of curiosity I went to the store and bought one more test. I took it that morning with Kolby there and two minutes later there was a DARK LINE!!!! We were pregnant!!!!!! I could really believe it now. I was a little overwhelmed because this baby would be joining us while I was still in school during my hardest semester, but I had a reassuring feeling that Heavenly Father knew that WE could do this. All those questions I had before about when would be the right time and would we know all went away. I learned that we can plan our lives out all we want but we have a Heavenly Father who knows us better than we know ourselves and what is best for us. I feel so lucky and blessed to be able to have this opportunity. I know it will be hard but I am excited for this journey to begin and I couldn’t be happier taking it with anyone else. After finding out that we were pregnant we went to our first doctor appointment. At that appointment we found out that we became pregnant a week after my Grandpa had passed away. Some say it was coincidence, I say it was planned. I am so grateful for the opportunity to be a mom and go though this beautiful phase in my life. I feel so blessed to have so many amazing women in my life who have been such great examples to me and hope that one day I can be just like them.